I’m Not the Mom I Thought I’d Be – Mom Confessions Monday
Hello out there.
I’m on the air.
It’s Mom Confessions Monday.
(That darn picture at the top is doing something weird. I’ve spent too much time trying to turn it and make it look like it says it should when I go to add it, so I’m just going to leave it as is. Sorry, dudes.)
I’m trying something new, you guys. There’s too much to say, and not enough time. I’d love to sit down right now and pour my little heart out into a perfectly structured and photographed post on one of the ideas that’s been bumping around my brain lately, but right now, I need to continue to take control of my home. I need to finish going through all the stuff that’s piled up and choose what stays and what goes, and to find a place for those things that will remain. The more I do with this, the more I realize that it needs to happen, and that the unnecessary extras hanging around are slowly smothering my life into having no idea what I want out of it. I need to be able to find my focus, and with so much disorganization, it’s just not very easy. So. That’s that.
To give me a bit of a “best of both worlds” situation – or at least a bit of both worlds – I took 5 minutes to make a short confessional on what I’m thinking about right now. I had no script. I didn’t take any time to think about what I was going to say. I didn’t put on makeup, pull back my hair, or even take my coat off after walking in the door (it’s cold in here, so I’m just going to keep it on, I think). The angle is awful, my mannerisms are as awkward as always (see me tugging on my earlobe? Nervous twitch that always ends in a sore ear), and the fact that my eyes are uneven is incredibly noticeable in this clip (if you didn’t notice, forget I said anything). I simply turned on the camera, and whatever came out, came out. Pure, honest, raw thoughts, which happened to be about motherhood, and how I’m not the mom I thought I would be before I had a little one.
If you take the time to see what I had to say, I’d love some feedback. I’d like to do this more often (maybe every Monday?), and while I want to keep it real and genuine, I’d also like to offer you more than the random ravings of my crazy little mind. If you have an idea for something you’d like to hear my thoughts on, feel free to share your idea with me. You can comment below, contact me via email, or connect with me on Facebook, Twitter, or Instagram.